Tonight was my life group meeting. It’s a group of girls that meets every other Monday night, and lately we’ve been discussing Esther. It started about sixteen months ago, and I’ve been going for about fourteen. Through last year and the summer we had about 12 on roster and maybe 6-8 active. Once the fall started we had a growth explosion. God truly blessed our group and our numbers just rocketed. We had as many as 18-20 crammed into that living room, and maybe 8-10 more that would come sporadically. Lately we’ve leveled out around 12-14 each week, and I’m so thankful that I can call these women my friends and my closest confidants. I was telling one of them tonight–I don’t know what I would have done the last year-plus without having this group to turn to. It’s been YEARS since I’ve had a group of women that I had this much in common with, and even not in common with, but we all love Jesus and come together to grow through God. For that matter, I’ve NEVER had a group like this, for in high school and college it wasn’t the same. And I wouldn’t change what I have now for the world.
Unfortunately, I’m not the one that gets to choose if we change or not. Tonight the decision was announced that the group is splitting in half. It is something I dreaded. I knew it was coming, I expected it, but I didn’t want to see it because I don’t want to lose the connection with whatever girls are going to be in the other group. We have to do it, I understand that. The church has ‘closed’ our group for five months now because we cannot accept more, yet there are still women looking to join groups and to fill a need. By splitting, we are now able to accommodate them and ‘reopen’. I know that change is good, and that growth is good, but selfishly I do not want to split for the aforementioned reason.
We are going to try to have a social once a month minimum so that we can stay close. And who knows, if membership dwindles then we will reform, but as for now we’ll make the best of it and see how things go. I’m excited about the opportunity, and hope for the best with both sets of women, though I will miss having J as my leader!!!