I never have been actually. A worrywart that is. Other members of my family, well, let’s just say that they have made it an exact science. It truly is an art form. But the practice of worrying over something is not one that I tend to do. I know that things will be taken care of in their own way, things that have already happened can’t change and therefore it’s a waste of time, and things I can’t influence are a waste of energy if I worry. So I don’t.
I found a passage today in my ‘library’ book that talked about worrying, and it had a checklist of things on there, I think it was ten or so, that could tell you if you have a tendency to worry. The only one I answered yes to was the final statement–you have a grandparent that worries incessantly. But me? Not so much.
I saw this sentence and it was one of two that really struck me: a fog bank that is a hundred feet deep and over seven city blocks is composed of less than a singular glass of water. Something that in a moment can seem gigantic, inconvenient, endless, not able to penetrate or get through, and that brings a city to a standstill is, in fact, small enough to hold the container in your hand. It’s not insurmountable. It’s not impossible. It is able to be done.
The second sentence that stuck with me was from Psalm 139: 23-24. It’s one I have heard many times, especially given that the theme of the kid’s production we just did was “Searching”. But this translation was a bit different: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” I think that the reason this stuck with me was the phrasing of “See if there is any offensive way in me”. I don’t know about you, but I know there is in me, and it is something that I strive to overcome.
So I will continue to try not to be a worrywart. To not take sometime that to me seems like it’s insurmountable, like having a job, and turn it into my own personal fog bank. For I know that I can make it through if I keep my mind on the right path and if I truly trust in God to lead me through the dark.