Yes, I am working now. Yay me. Not a great job, but I can put food on the table, etc. I get up, eat breakfast, go to work, come home, eat dinner (when it’s not too late), go to bed.
Here is what I don’t understand. I have to leave the house an hour earlier than I used to. So therefore I have to get up 90 minutes earlier in the morning (I am not a morning person). I work the same amount of time I used to (roughly 9.5 hours including lunch) and then come home. Yet I am getting home at least 30 minutes later than I used to thanks to the commute. So on a good night I’m home by 7, bad night I’m home by 730.
And then it takes every fiber of my being to not fall asleep on the couch by 9pm.
I don’t get it. I used to work THREE JOBS, or better yet–one full time, one part time, and was a full time grad student! I used to kid that I did nothing but sleep for the first six weeks after I graduated, and that’s not that untrue, but today? tonight?
I’m sorry, but I cannot for the life of me get any energy to do anything. My house is suffering. My projects are suffering. My sanity is suffering.
I used to stay up until 12 with no problem, now I try to make it to 9 but try to crash before the inevitable ‘second wind’ that hits between 11 and midnight that keeps me up until 2.
Maybe there was something to be said for unemployment after all.
So my hour (90 minutes) earlier in the morning translates into at least three hours of lost productivity at night. Where am I supposed to make this difference up? I start mandatory Saturday hours in a week, so there goes the weekend. And then, after the holidays, how on earth am I supposed to concentrate on finding a new job when I can’t even stay awake for the one I have right now!!!
It’s a conundrum.